I'm the kind of human wreckage that you love.

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Thu, 23 May 2013 17:46:54 -0400

primroseprints: Nick Cave and Iggy Pop by Planet Caravan...

Thu, 23 May 2013 04:28:22 -0400

Nick Cave and Iggy Pop by Planet Caravan Vintage Rock Radio

I’m back for one of those nights of crying and just looking at pictures and thinking about how...

Thu, 23 May 2013 04:27:18 -0400

I’m back for one of those nights of crying and just looking at pictures and thinking about how I hate everything related to me and to be conscious of my existence.

Have you missed this? This is me.

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Wed, 22 May 2013 03:19:06 -0400

currentrotation: “High and Dry” by Radiohead “Don’t leave me...

Sun, 19 May 2013 16:36:59 -0400

currentrotation:

“High and Dry” by Radiohead

“Don’t leave me high, don’t leave me dry…”

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I always say I’ll stop drinking and smoking but I end up doing it again anyway. I need to be...

Sun, 19 May 2013 16:04:00 -0400

I always say I’ll stop drinking and smoking but I end up doing it again anyway.
I need to be more strict to myself.

transparadise: “I used to think I was the strangest person in...

Thu, 16 May 2013 19:19:11 -0400

transparadise:

“I used to think I was the strangest person in the world but then I thought there are so many people in the world, there must be someone just like me who feels bizarre and flawed in the same ways I do. I would imagine her, and imagine that she must be out there thinking of me too. Well, I hope that if you are out there and read this and know that, yes, it’s true I’m here, and I’m just as strange as you.” - Frida Kahlo

i wrote that message not to make you feel ashamed or anything,i just miss you badly but i do understand why you're not on here so often anymore,i'm not either,for the same reasons,but you're in my head every single day and since i feel it there's some hope for me too,just knowing you exist somewhere gives me enough will to keep on looking for a way to live,you're important to me,and no matter how long you're away i'm here for you,everyone who loves you is still here if you need anything at all x

Thu, 16 May 2013 19:13:59 -0400

I know. I’m really trying so hard and it helps me to know you’re there somewhere as well. You’ll always be an important part of my life. I think this is a decisive moment in my life and I’m glad you’re here for me. I’m here for you as well, please, don’t forget it. If I make it, it’ll be thank to you and the people I love. I’m really doing my best to keep going, I needed this. I miss you a lot. I’m still thinking about you. x

"If you want to cry, then cry. Decide by yourself whether you are important or not. Even if other..."

Thu, 16 May 2013 18:54:18 -0400

“If you want to cry, then cry. Decide by yourself whether you are important or not. Even if other people value you, nobody can do anything for you. Ultimately, it’s your problem so if you live without regrets, then over time I think that your problems would disappear.”

- Kyo (Dir en grey)

existential-question-time: Our lives drift into a faceless...

Thu, 16 May 2013 18:51:45 -0400

existential-question-time:

Our lives drift into a faceless sense of void
Everything of meaning becomes destroyed
There’s too much concrete for us to breathe
We are kept down cos we hate

you see,i have never met you. but i miss you more than anyone i've known irl,more than friends i had when i was a kid,because you mean so much to me,you are things i adore and respect,while all the people i knew are strangers now,and somehow you're one of the few who are not. this feeling is irrational because it makes me want to come and see you as if i did it before but it's been so long since the last time it did happen. but in fact it's never happened at all. i love to dream about it anyway

Wed, 08 May 2013 02:47:00 -0400

I’m so sorry for not keeping in contact. It’s my fault. I know words are really nothing and that you aren’t saying this to accuse me but I should let people know about me, it’s the least I could do. I genuinely have you in my mind everyday. I’m not sure if I’m running away from myself because I feel I’m just floating lately but this helps me not to hurt myself. I’m not in contact with reality, that’s why I haven’t been here, but I know I should. You’re so dear to me, and I understand what your words because I’ve felt it as well for you. I’ll always come back here and I’ll always try to keep in touch with you. There is so many people I love in this place that I know it seems I’ve abandoned, but I think of you all. And I think of you, Bella and Niels everyday. I hope you know that even if I’m not here and it seems we’re apart, I’m always walking by your side. I’m sorry for disappearing. x

eyes-like-cyanide: wild-soulchild: Courtney Love consoling...

Wed, 08 May 2013 02:33:45 -0400

eyes-like-cyanide:

wild-soulchild:

Courtney Love consoling Kurt’s fans after his suicide, April 8th 1994

i love you courtney

she is such a sweetheart but no one gives her the time of day to let her show that side of her.

"People disappeared, reappeared, made plans to go somewhere, and then lost each other, searched for..."

Thu, 02 May 2013 11:48:13 -0400

“People disappeared, reappeared, made plans to go somewhere, and then lost each other, searched for each other, found each other a few feet away.”

- F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Great Gatsby (via ileu)

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sjalv: out of the sickroom and into the white blazing sun by...

Thu, 25 Apr 2013 11:44:11 -0400

sjalv:

out of the sickroom and into the white blazing sun by charles bukowski.

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Thu, 25 Apr 2013 11:33:07 -0400

do you remember that i love you because i do i do i do i do xxxx

Tue, 23 Apr 2013 15:47:00 -0400

I do love you too. I think of you everyday and I hope everything is fine. xxxx

It’s passed midnight and I found myself a place in a corner at the darkness while everyone...

Tue, 23 Apr 2013 03:35:00 -0400

It’s passed midnight and I found myself a place in a corner at the darkness while everyone went to bed to be able to finish my work.
I’ve been keeping myself busy for the last couple of weeks or more, active all the time. I don’t go to bed unless I know my body and mind are so tired that I’ll fall asleep right away.

I’m 21 years old and I already feel the consequences of having overworked and abused of my body for so long. Mentally; I’ve felt them for many more years.
My entire body hurts and it’s painful to walk. Just, no rewards, but to keep myself busy. I work until I’m physically and emotionally drained. I barely get two or three hours of sleep a day.

I walked into my mother’s room and for the first time in a very long time, I collapsed feeling as exhausted as I used to feel when I was younger. It’s a different kind of waste. The kind of that makes me feel a bit good.
I’m late at everything and I have to keep working. All of this work to avoid thinking only. I don’t allow myself think. However, when I woke up a moment ago, my very first thought was; “what am I going to do?”. I’m terrified at the idea that in some months I’ll have free time to think on myself and I’ll have to. And I’ve been doing nothing more than working in silly, unrewarded skills. What am I going to do then? And my second thought was; “I have so much work to do, I have to get up now”. Those thoughts have been what has conformed my head for the most of my life and that moment when I woke up after collapsing is what I’ve been doing also. And I wonder how is going to be if I feel so wasted already.

I made sure of keeping myself busy so I wouldn’t have time to cry. I was sick and tired of being that person, but I feel I’m about to explode right now.
I’m so so tired. I’m not sleepy, I don’t need to sleep or get some vacations, or to eat more and work less. I’m just so very tired.